Before I start my post, I am packed and ready to go to Tremblant. I forgot to bring a real winter jacket b/c I figure I wouldn't need one since the weather is so warm. Amd we all know how inaccurate the weatherman can be. I will see if my friend has an extra one I can borrow. I got my runners and got a new swim toy :)

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Heart of the Matter by Don Henley



If you heard this song, you will quickly realize it is about a guy found out someone he once love is with someone else. Forgiveness. Such a simple word. Yet so hard to do. Maybe it is our human nature, our pride and ego that hold us back.

This is not necessarily have to between a lover relationship. It can also between family and friends.

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
...People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness

Some of the hardest struggles are not external. It is with the closest ones we love and care for. I admit at times I let my heart filled with rage.

There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you inside

I have been hitting the same speed bump again and again. Frustration grew within. I am so tempted to point fingers. I know there is only one person responsible. Myself. If I don't quench the anger, I will forever carry this burden in my heart.

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

The Heart of the Matter. I once woke up thinking about someone I put behind a long time ago. Things never developed between us and I decided not to nurture our relationship. I thought about how she is doing. Where is she living? Is she marry?

Am I interested in developing romantically with her? Back then yes. Now, I moved on. And I am sure she has moved on as well.

I find it odd how when relationships don't work out, both party have such anger for each other. Maybe it is easier for us to put up a wall and build our defense. To bury our emotions. Cover it up. But deep down, it becomes a burden that we all carry. It stays within us forever. Until we face it, to ask for forgiveness, it will eat us up. To have peace within ourselves, we have to forgive.

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

It took Dan 40 years to write a 4 minutes song. It took me 4 minutes to reflect what happen 8 years ago. I never hold a grudge against her. To put blame is not fair. I just hope the same from the other side.