Waiting for the moment
I have spent the whole weekend thinking and planning. A lot of praying and reflecting.
Cliff, you haven't done this before. You are taking a big step. You are venturing into uncharted water. What if your ship sink?
Hey I felt this feeling before......I know how to deal with this.
Don't worry. It is normal. Anxious is a good thing. I have been into this water before. It might have been rough in the past. Don't let the past control your future. It just looks rough. The only way to find out is to head into the waves. If my ship sink, great. At least it is out in the water. Not sitting on the dock.
If I never venture, it will forever remain uncharted. Life is about discovering the unknown. Taking the risk. Not about sitting around and staring at corners.
You are going way over board with this, Cliff. Who else does this? No one. You are not normal. This is NUTS.
Dang right it is nuts. If it ain't nuts, it ain't fun.
My friend, Elaine, has a great perspective on taking photos. She will make us do silly poses so that the pics will become memorable. That's how life should be live as well.
Mix emotions run through my body.
Am I being tear apart by them? Nope.
I am calm.
Regardless of the outcome, I known this will be a memorable moment. Not about right or wrong. Not about improving myself. Not about any superficial or selfish reason.
I just want to be.
The sails are set.
The anchor is raised.