Friday, September 29, 2006

A year come and gone (non-tri related)

This has nothing to do with tri. I am just thinking about my own self development over the year.

I am leading the Young Career Fellowship in my Church. I have been in this position for a year. I can't really say I lead.

There is a lot of reason why I don't feel like I am leading....one of them is that I am a young Christian. This reason trapped me into a year. My mind screams out, 'how are you going to lead them..you are so young..so new...'

I can see this as a challenge. I, instead, took the easy route. The very reason became an excuse...I can't lead b/c I am too young...Be lassez-faire. Just see how things go. Very little in planning and organization. (side note: Does training effected this? For sure....).

If there is one thing about God is that He is mighty. My fellowship continued to grow despite my lack of guidance, vision and leadership. Last November, avg attendance was 8. Now, 15+. We once have 20 people. One person baptized and one recently accepted Christ.

Last night, we once again sat down and chat about what we want from the group. I am glad a few members were willing to step up and decide to form a committee.

...If there is a problem...or something that need to be change, it is my attitude...my perspective. A year has come and gone. And things haven't change much. I know things need to be change so I need to take the initiative and make the change. As a leader, that's my job. Might stumble a few times but that's the only way to grow. No one learn to ride a bike without falling down.

If I don't take that step, I can't expect my group to do the same. Yet, deep in my mind, I have been waiting for them to take the leap. Leader goes first...they always go first.

It is time to stop saying 'I can't lead or I can't b/c I don't know or no formal training ' Either I find a way or make one. Fear, you have stop me once and in the future I know I will see you again. Come, let's go for a ride....


Our Deepest Fear
By Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.

We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us;
It's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we're liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

9 comments:

stronger said...

I've never met you but I bet you shine. Nice poem to attach.

Redpiper said...

I've decided to lead a small group at my church. There are a few requirements and some I didn't expect. It's challenged my faith in a positive way, but I too question whether I'm leadership material. All the ladies seem to think so and HE has been working through me each week as we meet!

Bolder said...

Cliff, I'm coming to Toronto after my Ironman for November 11th (my little sister is getting married).

I'm working on flights now, but I'd very much like to meet you, and do a Celebrity Something!

Robin said...

Cliff, I love reading your posts! Just wanted to say that...

Sarah Lukas said...

It's awesome you keep this part of you around. I love it.

Thomas said...

I think you're putting yourself down for no reason. Your group has doubled in size, and I'm sure that's not an accident. Leadership doesn't mean you're actively behind things 24 hours a day. Just being a good example for others to follow can be a much better way of leading a group.

Dave said...

Hey Cliff, thanks for the sharing. I don't know if I could do any better if I was leading. But like I always tell you, you shouldn't have to lead alone, or feel like that you should lead alone. In a way, many Emmanueler's have already stepped up to the plate, and I think that's why our fellowship works so well.

Rachel said...

You are going to be a great teacher and leader. The best ones can always admit they're still learning and that they're not perfect.

Bonbon said...

Hey Cliff,

We all work as a team...we are all part of the body of Christ, we help each other out. Our fellowship has grown so much both in numbers and w/ in each other. Just because you are a young Christian doesn't mean you are not a good leader. You are a good leader. We all have our strengths and weakness but together it all works out. Never feel like you're alone or carrying all the burden.