Cast those doubts aside...

These past few days, I felt anxiety and nervousness about the coming race. Part of it Is that I haven't cast my anxiety aside.

If you look at what I have been thinking, you will see they are self sabotaging.

What if I fail and not reach my expectation of my race? I ran the distance before. What if this time I don't make it. What if I blow up before I reach the finish line? I have friends coming over. Would I disappoint them?

That's silly. Friends don't even care about my result as long as I cross the finish line. If I fail, so be it, at least I give it all. Learnt from the mistake and tri again. I am glad I put this down on the blog. Need an outlet :)

I have written my race strategy down this morning. I start to visiualize, the swim, the bike and the run, the transition, the hydration, the nutrition....

When Faris Al-Sultan runs, he is so relax that his hands wiggle back and fourth. I try to incorporate that in my run. I also envision running like Lisa Bentley and have the poker face of Peter Reid. RUN TOUGH!

I just read Gordo's post IMC report. He executed exactly as he has planned. Excellent....(note: he had a 1 L hydration pack off the run and had another one in his special needs bag).

Ironman Canada came and gone over the weekend. I have been tracking Darren and Mike on their journey. Great to track them every hour or so. I definintely have to do this one some where down the line.

Looking at the pics from IronMitch, I could see why Ironman is so special.

Len, my photographer..err paparzzi just called me this morning. His voice was very depress and low. It turned out his cousin from the states are in town this weekend and he won't come with me to see my race.

It is very strange. When someone say they will do something, I will hold them up to it. At that point, I realize Len had put a lot with me. He went to see me race in 1/2 Peterborough Ironman. He is already planning to see me race in Lake Placid next year. I can't say I ain't disappointed. Not of him. Just can't get more shots of me...(doesn't that sound vain :D). Anyways..I told him to enjoy the time with his cousin. I see him way too many times anyway (I am sure he feels the same way :D).

Am I the only triathlete to feel compulsive? This weekend, while in taper mode, I have done 4 loads of laundry!! I didn't realize I have this much clothing. I still have more to do (blankets and towels).

I have an interview with HP this Thursday. Should I taper for that? :)

(on the other hand, I am very confident I can smoke this interivew. I know I have the skills and experience for this job.)