Saturday, March 18, 2006

Physically strong, mentally exhausted...

It is amazing how one day can make a big difference....

5:30 pm - left office
7:30 pm - stuck in told me the comp is dead. Check to see that the hard drive is dying. Bailed on run b/c there ain't time.
8:30 pm - decide to lug the computer to office b/c there is more tools I can use to fix the problem. Brought my swim gear with me.
9:15 pm - still in office, changed the hard drive but the power button won't work, wait until tomorrow. Bailed on swim b/c the pool is close in 40 min and I rather rest up for tomorrow's long bike.
9:45 pm - called Geoff I can't go have beer with him. Body too tired, need to rest for morning ride on Sat. Exhuasted, decided to go to Chapters and pick a tri magazine b/c Commdore wrote a piece of article describing about us in there. Chapters didn't have it. Got some other tri magazine that has a lot of 2006 gears.
10:30 pm - rented Lord of the Rings for tomorrow ride. Tired. Go to bed.
11:30 pm - slept, woke up by one of my cats.
2:00 am - woke up and can't get back to sleep
5:00 am - my cats don't get along and they were having a fight under my bed, got up fed them and separate them
8:00 am - got up and ride for 3 hr
12:20 pm - had a doctor appointment at 12:30 pm, decided to call and tell them I will be late. No answer, drive back home.
1:27 pm - now stuck in office, fixing comp and eating my lunch.

I am sure we all feel this one time or another...I ain't frustrated at anyone but I can tell I am quite temper (especially driving). It is just the circumstances I am facing. Little things like the hard drive is dead, need to change to a new case. Trying to organize the Food drive for Church. Getting ppl to co-ordinate for that. Reminding ppl what things need to be done. At work, the network need to be rename. Of course, this can only be done after operating hours.

I am asking myself "why am I in the office right now". Especially last night. What's the point. I can be out enjoying myself or swim. Or the very least I can be at home. Yeah, I am feeling it.

Sometimes the only thing that holds me together is the training. It is the only thing that keep me sane. As crazy as that sounds, training don't give me stress. Everything else do.

If u are the praying type...please pray for me.. last night at bed, i really think geez, if God didn't give me the passion to train, I am going to break down. Better head out now. I gotta do my thing before see my Dentist at 4 pm.


Trisaratops said...

One of those days, huh....hang in there! Good thing you have your faith and your training to focus on--that always helps me, too. Hope you get a better night's sleep tonight! :)

Dawn - Pink Chick Tris said...

I agree sometimes a run is the best stress relief. I'd pray for ya but I'm afraid Dad has dibs on all my prayers for now. I will wish you luck. Take care Cliff and sorry I haven't been by in a bit.

Ann (bunnygirl) said...

Hang in there! Sometimes all the frustrations hit at once, but then you muddle through and things get better.

I hope you're able to get a bit of training in!

Migofast said...

Don't let "The Man" get you down ;) Id be psyched if my computer went down in flames .... less computer = more training! Of course no computer = no job = no monies for racing....forget what I said earlier maybe you should just take the cpu for a run with you.

Praying for your peace and patience (especially when driving dont want to see you on the evening news)

Proverbs 16:32

Anonymous said...

You just proved to yourself that you have the tools to get through these times. I can empathize!

For the last 3 weeks I've been traveling 3 or 4 days per week and it's not going to change until mid-April. I have to leave my little 2 year old at home, but daddy has to go make a living. Do you know the only thing that holds me together mentally? The hotel gyms. After a tiring day of work and travel, only the physical exhaustion of an hour on the treadmill or spinning bike at tough pace can lift my spirits.

Until things get less busy for you, give up anything else, but don't give up your training!

Kewl Nitrox said...

Hang in there bro, I am praying for you. We all need the Lord to come and re-light our passion for life sometimes. I am in the same boat so let's both look forward to His enabling grace to come and ignite us!

Rachel said...

You are way too busy! I hate when there's not enough time in the day. Ugh.

CJ said...

Hang in there Cliff - at least you have your training to keep you sane. It will get better!

Sixteen Chickens said...

Your cats need to relax and have a beer together, better bring them with you next time you see Geoff.

Rae said...

Hang in there! We all have down days, I had one yesterday where I was convinced I was fat and I was planning to kill all our annoying neighbors.

William said...

Hey, my comp died again on the weekend too. Just corrupt data wiht CP, but both my CD-ROMS are dead and so I can't fix it till I get a new one.

Be firm in your bed times and stick to it, no matter what. Lack of sleep will lead to lack of training in no time. You need to have the desire because spring is just around the corner. Hold on, just wait out the storm.

Comm's said...

I get frustrated really easily when driving b/c I am a considerate driver and most others are not. I will let someone merge rather than speed up to get in front, I wave when I am let in. Usually I do not get that courtesy when I let others in or if they cut in recklessly, instead of giving them my finger or yelling into the air, I wave at them and say, "God Bless you". You cant be made when you say that.