I. One Less ToothWent to the dentist to yank out a tooth. Trust me, it was better out than in. Ever since my bike accident in Sept, this tooth has been aching. It ached so bad that I could not bite properly. It is one of the back tooth on the left side. I have to eat everything on the right side. The dentist told me the tooth has splitted into three bits.
On the way home, I felt weak and insecure. In the next few months, I will have to go fix my teeth. This means, I won't be hitting the chlorine pool as often as I want. In fact, I may have to cut off some training for rest days. I was planning to take a swim class in December. With such uncertainty, I am going to hold that off. I am sure the cost to fix my teeth will be higher than expected. I need a tri bike, need a wetsuit, need swimming classes. Argh......
It seems my plan for next year is falling apart even it begins. How can such a little thing as fixing my teeth can effect so much?
II. Calmness in Calamity
What's interesting is how calm I am despite what happen. I am feeling more positive despite what's going on in my life. At work, I have to implement a database which it wasn't decided properly. At Chruch, I am leading a Fellowship which its spirit seemed to be suck dry in the summertime. At training, I am unsure what's my true potential is. At home, things are going up and down. Oh yeah and then there is this teeth situation.
Despite all that, there are times when I feel true calmness. In a sea of raging waves, I find peace and harmony. I have never felt this before. And it just happened ever since I had my bike accident. It would happen randomly. I would go down to the basement and suddenly I will feel it. It is as if Jesus came down and put his hand on my shoulder, comforting me.
With all these problems, I have never feel such satisfaction in my life. I have a good job with someone I can mentor upon. I can pay my bills. I can run, and bike and swim. I can train. I have good friends (a few on here :) ). If I am going to heaven tomorrow, let's go. My life should have ended back in '91 when I was diagnosed with cancer. Everyday I wake up is extra. Bonus.
8 comments:
Just hold on Cliff. I'm sure you'll get lots of training in and your church group will come around.
Just live one day at a time and let tomorrow worry about tomorrow.
So are you now toothless-er?
Why can't you go swimming? Does it have something to do w/ the chlorine?
I had to go to the dentist to remove another tooth b/c this one cracked when I had my accident.
To Steph: Yup. I just don't know how the gums (with open wound) will react to the chlorine. Better take the safe side and not hit the pool.
At least I can go to do more running :)
I feel your pain, just had three root canals. Ouch! It is hard to be motivated to work out when you have a toothache. This sucks! It's nice to knoe someone else known what I'm going through.
Run run run! I'll run with you...if you aren't too intimidated by my lightning fast speed...mmmwahahaha
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